Be strong

I miss you so much I cannot sleep.

I have no idea why this is happening so randomly and after so long.

If only I didn't put up a cold front. If only I acted like my unprocessed version and told you all the heartfelts. I didn't because I have problems showing my affection. & sometimes when I blurt it out I would correct myself so that it seems more heartless. Nobody understands.

I wish you were here. Now. I would hug you so tight and tell you how I was acting cool.

I really hate myself for pushing you away the second time. But at the same time I think this may be better for you cuz god knows what this weird girl here would do to you next?

Mom is right. I am so hopelessly doomed when it comes to love.

我真的很想你